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I've just moved from Los Angeles to Kalamazoo to Okemos to be a film maker because I'm an idiot.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Tidal waves don't beg forgiveness
crash and on their way
Father he enjoyed collisions
others walked away
the snowflake falls in May.

and the doors are opened now
as the bells are ringing out

cause the man of the hour is taking his final bow
goodbye for now

nature has it's own religion
gospel of the land
father ruled by long division
young man may pretend
old man comprehend

and the sky breaks at dawn
shedding light upon this town
they all come round

as the man of the hour is taking his final bow
bye for now

and the road the old man paved
the broken seams along the way
the rusted signs left just for me
he was guiding me, love, his only way

now the man of the hour is taking his final bow
as the curtain comes down I feel that this is just
goodbye for now.

"Man of the Hour" - Pearl Jam

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

...another heartache... another failed romance.....

Sunday, October 19, 2003

wow.... this page is still here....

ironically, i was coming here to post the lyrics to "Hurt" by Nine Inch Nails, and I see that my mood hasn't really changed in the last seven months.

weird.

Monday, March 31, 2003

i hurt myself today...
to see if i still feel...
i focus on the pain...
the only thing that's real...
the needle tears a hole...
the old familiar sting...
trying to kill it all away...
but i remember everything...

what have i become?
my sweetest friend,
everyone i know
goes away in the end.

you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt

i wear this crown of shit...
upon my liars chair...
full of broken thoughts...
that i cannot repair...
beneath the stains of time...
the feelings disappear...
you are someone else...
i am still right here...

what have i become?
my sweetest friend,
everyone i know
goes away in the end.

you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt

if i could start again
a million miles away
i would keep myself
i would find a way.

Thursday, January 02, 2003

If I could... yes I would...
If I could, I would let it go...

Surrender...

Dislocate...

Saturday, December 28, 2002

Red Hot Chili Peppers
Under The Bridge


Sometimes I feel
Like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel
Like my only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of angels
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I drive on her streets
'Cause she's my companion
I walk through her hills
'Cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds
And she kisses me windy
I never worry
Now that is a lie

I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way

It's hard to believe
That there's nobody out there
It's hard to believe
That I'm all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all that way

Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the bridge downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away

Wednesday, December 04, 2002

I wish I was the souvenier you kept your house key on.

Sunday, December 01, 2002

I was the fool because I thought I thought the world. Turns out the world thought me.


Tuesday, November 26, 2002

I don't want you and I don't need you
don't bother to resist, I'll beat you
It's not your fault that you're always wrong
the weak ones are there to justify the strong

the beautiful people, the beautiful people
it's all relative to the size of your steeple
you can't see the forest for the trees
you can't smell your own shit on your knees

Hey you, what do you see?
something beautiful, something free?
hey you, are you trying to be mean?
if you live with apes man, it's hard to be clean

there's no time to discriminate,
hate every motherfucker
that's in your way
the worms will live in every host
it's hard to pick which one they eat most

the horrible people, the horrible people
it's as anatomic as the size of your steeple
capitalism has made it this way,
old-fashioned fascism will take it away

Monday, November 18, 2002

all the rusted signs we ignore throughout our life
choosing the shiny ones instead
i turned my back, now there's no turning back

no matter how cold the winter theres a springtime ahead
i smile, but who am i kidding?
i'm just walking the miles, every once in a while get a ride
i'm thumbing my way back to heaven.

Pearl Jam; "Thumbing My Way"

Sunday, November 17, 2002

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Sunday, November 03, 2002

Hast du etwas Zeit fur mich, dann Singe ich eine Leid fur dich von neunundneunzig luftballoons auf ihrem Weg zum Horizont. Denkst du viellicht grad' an mich. Dann Singe ich ein Leid fur dich von neunundneunzig luftballoons und dass sowas von sowas kommt.

Thursday, October 24, 2002

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgettin
What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out
He's chokin, how everybody's jokin now
The clock's run out, time's up over, bloah!
Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity
Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked
He's so mad, but he won't give up that
easy? No
He won't have it , he knows his whole back city's ropes
It don't matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke
He's so stacked that he knows
When he goes back to his mobile home, that's when it's
Back to the lab again yo
This whole rap shit
He better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him

You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

Wednesday, September 11, 2002

Name these tunes.... all these are the first few lines.

1.) Don't you think you oughta rest? Don't you think you oughta lay your head down? Don't you think you oughta sleep? Don't you think you oughta lay your head down tonight?

2.) Can't believe the news today. I can't close my eyes and make it go away. How long... how long must we sing this song. How long.. how long... Tonight we can be as one... tonight.

3.) The circus is falling down on it's knees. The big top is crumbling down. It's ___________________ fifty miles east. Where you should be no one's around.

4.) I wake up in the morning. Put on my face. The one thats gonna get me through another day. It doesn't really matter how I feel inside cuz life is like a game sometimes.

5.) And to love a god, and to fear the flame, and to burn a crowd that has a name, and too right or wrong, and too meak or strong, it is known to scream it from the walls.

6.) Hey God, why are you doing this to me? Am I not living up to what I'm supposed to be? Why am I seething with this animosity? Hey God, I think you owe me a great big apology.

7.) Make your money with a suit and tie. Make your money with shrewd denial. Make you money expert advice, if you can wing it.

8.) I was staring at the sky just looking for star to pray or wish on or something like that.

9.) When I go walking I strut my stuff and I'm so strung out. I'm high as a kite, I just might stop to check you out.


Sunday, June 30, 2002

Marcy wins again. So now I'm going to post ten quotes. If you can get them all, you are the queen. Or king. Whatever. Some are easy, some are not.

1.) They're sharing a drink they call loneliness, but it's better than drinking alone.

2.) Take a breath, take your time. Spread your wings and rise. Rise through the black Ohio sky.

3.) In the garden I was playing the tart. I kissed your lips and broke your heart.

4.) She knew from the start deep down in her heart, she and Tommy were worlds apart.

5.) I can't do everything, but I'll do anything for you. I can't do anything except be in love with you.

6.) I didn't know what day it was when you walked into the room. I said hello, I noticed you said goodbye too soon.

7.) I look up and what do you see? All of you and all of me. Fluorescent and starry, some of them, they surprise.

8.) Train roll on. On down the line. Won't you please take me far away.

9.) Jan lays down and wrestles in her sleep. Moonlight spills on comic books and superstars in magazines.

10.) I'm gonna sing a song for you. And Bill's gonna show you a thing or two.

Take that. You wanna be the king? You'll be the fool!!

It is "T.B.D." by Live. (which traditionally stands for "To Be Determined"). Marcy wins.... fatality.

What song has this line....?

"Fix your bent antenna, tune it in and then I'm gonna enter in the front of your skin like a splinter."

Saturday, June 29, 2002

Ann Arbor Grandfather by Big Head Todd and the Monsters

He left one Tuesday morning
Didn't have any bills to pay.
Just the silver dollars in his pocket.
And the ring upon his finger.
Ann Arbor Grandfather.

Early on a Sunday morning
A deacon wipes the tar off his feet.
Drawing pictures during the sermon.
Oh yeah Grandfather, I think it's funny.
Ann Arbor Grandfather

There's a picture on a wall in Duluth.
Another Grandma has passed away.
Her children rummage through her leavings.
They put them in new boxes,
And they put the new boxes in new attics.
Ann Arbor Grandfather.

Friday, June 21, 2002

in the moment i was losing my head and reading too much and losing my head and i was reaching for it i was already there reading too much and losing my head this infromation caused a cut in the line now i'm remembering god and reading too much it's so nice the print is smaller than the ants in the grass i'll have to put it away now in the morning there were things to be read and words to be said and food to be fed but i won't be there i'll be clutching on the megaphone pointed at my head will you be there would you kindly scream this word for word so loud and clear i can't remember it all it needs to be clear i'll tell you if the feeling drops out of your voice would you kindly pick it up this is how i go out tonight dressed in blue by the book tonight this is how i go out tonight but i don't need a book we're talking anchors talking ships we're talking seas we're talking anything you need you should be working now not only asking how and the whereabouts of where you'll be i don't suspect you will be thinking when the brain is dead and the mind has taken over this is a skill this is not a game where have you been are you with us can you hear us got the megaphone pointed at you...

What song is this? If you can tell me you win.

Thursday, June 20, 2002

For you...

This Brilliant Dance by Dashboard Confessional.

So this is odd,
the painful realization that has all gone wrong.
And nobody cares at all,
and nobody cares at all.

So you buried all your lover's clothes
and burned the letters lover wrote,
but it doesn't make it any better.
Does it make it any better?

And the plaster dented from your fist
in the hall where you had your first kiss
reminds you that the memories will fade.

So this is strange,
our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance
where nobody leads at all,
where nobody leads at all.

And the picture frames are facing down
and the ringing from this empty sound
is deafening and keeping you from sleep.

And breathing is a foreign task
and thinking's just too much to ask
and you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.

This is incredible
starving
insatiable

yes, this is love for the first time.

Well you'd like to think that you were invincible.
Yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt loss for the first time?

Well this is the last time.

Wednesday, May 29, 2002

I heard this song off of Automatic For The People last night while watching one of the most beautiful movies I have seen in a long long time, Vanilla Sky. And so I thought I'd put it here because I love the song too. Enjoy.

Sweetness Follows by R.E.M.

Readying to bury your father and your mother,
what did you think when you lost another?
I used to wonder why did you bother,
distanced from one, blind to the other?

Listen here my sister and my brother
what would you care if you lost the other?
I always wonder why did we bother,
distanced from one, deaf to the other.

Oh, oh, but sweetness follows

It's these little things, they can pull you under.
Live your life filled with joy and wonder.
I always knew this altogether thunder
was lost in our little lives.

Oh, oh, but sweetness follows.
Oh, oh, but sweetness follows.

It's these little things, they can pull you under.
Live your life filled with joy and thunder.
Yeah, yeah we were altogether
lost in our little lives.

Oh. Oh. Ah.

Oh, oh, but sweetness follows.
Oh, oh, but sweetness follows.

Monday, April 29, 2002

"Fuck y'all. All y'all.
If y'all don't like me, blow me.
Y'all are gonna keep fuckin around with me
and turn me back to the old me."

--Dr. Dre (feat.Eminem); "Forgot About Dre."

Jesus...
Jesus help me....
I'm alone in this world...
and a fucked up world it is too.

Tell me....
Tell me the story...
the one about eternity...
and the way it's all gonna be.

--U2; "Wake Up Dead Man."

Saturday, April 27, 2002

Happiness is a warm gun.
Bang bang shoot shoot.

Tuesday, April 16, 2002

Vincent of Jersey by Big Head Todd and the Monsters

Vincent of Jersey.
He's wearing a red and white t-shirt.
He's loving the ladies upon his floor.

A bottle of brandy.
A hard box of Camels.
He's waiting for love to come knocking upon his door.

And he says something like...

Someday somebody's gonna love me.
Someday it's me they're looking for.
Someday somebody's gonna want me.
Because I'm Vincent of Jersey.

Wednesday, April 10, 2002

Piggy by Nine Inch Nails

Hey Pig
Yeah you
Hey piggy pig pig pig
all of my fears came true

black and blue and broken bone
you left me here I'm all alone
my little piggy needed something new

nothing can stop me now because I don't care any more
nothing can stop me now because I just don't care
nothing can stop me now because I don't care any more
nothing can stop me now because I just don't care

Hey pig
nothing's turning out the way I planned
Hey pig
there's a lot of things that I hoped you could help me understand

what am I supposed to do I lost my shit because of you

nothing can stop me now because I don't care any more
nothing can stop me now because I just don't care
nothing can stop me now because I don't care any more
nothing can stop me now because I just don't care
nothing can stop me now because I don't care any more
nothing can stop me now because I just don't care
nothing can stop me now because I don't care any more
nothing can stop me now because I just don't care

Tuesday, April 09, 2002

Closer by Nine Inch Nails

You let me violate you.
You let me desecrate you.
You let me penetrate you.
You let me complicate you.

Help me, I broke apart my insides.
Help me, I've got no soul to sell.
Help me, the only thing that works for me...
Help me get away from myself

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existance is flawed
You get me closer to God.

You can have my isolation.
You can have the hate that it brings.
You can have my abscence of faith.
You can have my everything.

Help me, you tear down my reason.
Help me, it's you sex I can smell.
Help me, you make me perfect.
Help me become somebody else.

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existance is flawed
You get me closer to God.

through every forest, above all the trees
within my stomach, scraped off my knees
i drink the honey inside your hive,
you are the reason i stay alive


Eraser by Nine Inch Nails

need you
dream you
find you
taste you
fuck you
use you
scar you
break you
lose me
hate me
smash me
erase me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me



Thursday, April 04, 2002

It Stinks by Joel Hodgeson, Trace Beaulieu, and Kevin Murphy (with Jim Mallon)

With the pickle mind we kick the nipple beer
Steady as we go we're flying over trout
Ghetto down the high way at the speed of light
All I want to feel now is the wind in my eyes.

Sack of monkeys in my pocket
My sister's ready to go.

Hear the engines roar now (hear the engines roar now)
Idiot control now (idiot contro no)
Hideous control now (hear the engines ol now)
Ninny on the road now (ninny po po now)

Mini in contol, wheels on fire, burnin' rubber tires (rubber tires)

Leery chother rolls now (ee ah ohh...)
Hit it Lesley go now (hit ah go...)
Ninny inches bo now (oh now..)
Pity in a poor boy (po boy...)

Heedy inches roll, bees on pie, burnin' rubber tires (uh..)

Sunday, March 31, 2002

Made using the Brunching Shuttlecocks "Alanis Morissette Lyrics Generator."

"I Think"

I Think stores are really a huge problem
I Think old Ladies are too much on my mind
I Think bargains have got a lot to do with why the world sucks
But what can you do?

Like a blue rain, beating down on me
Like a Poe line, which won't let go of my brain
Like Susan's ass, it is in my head
Blame it on coupons
Blame it on coupons
Blame it on coupons

I Think money is gonna drive us all crazy
And newspapers make me feel like a child
I Think discounts will eventually be the downfall of civilization
But what can you do? I said what can you do?

Like a blue rain, beating down on me
Like a Poe line, which won't let go of my brain
Like Susan's ass, it is in my head
Blame it on coupons
Blame it on coupons
Blame it on coupons

Like a blue rain, beating down on me
Like Susan's smile, cruel and cold
Like Poe's ass, it is in my head
Blame it on coupons
Blame it on coupons
Blame it on coupons

Or how about this one......

"Will to Live"

I feel miserable
Old ladies make me ill
I feel miserable
Cars tear at my foundations
I feel miserable
High ways are dragging me down to the depths of misery
I want to die

Is it because of slow drivers that I feel this way?
With the red rays of misery pounding on my brain?
Or am I lost in tale of Jewel, adrift far from home
I don't think so, I don't think so.

Laura Broke My Will to Live
Laura Broke My Will to Live
Laura Broke My Will to Live
I was getting better but then
Laura Broke My Will to Live

I feel miserable
Fast lanes rot the flesh from my bones
I feel miserable
Speed limits defeat my purpose
I feel miserable
Old ladies are doing their best to impale my soul
I want to die

Is it because of slow drivers that I feel this way?
With the red rays of misery pounding on my brain?
Am I lost in tale of Jewel, adrift far from home
I don't think so, I don't think so.

Laura Broke My Will to Live
Laura Broke My Will to Live
Oh God, Laura Broke My Will to Live
I was getting better but then
Laura Broke My Will to Live

This is my favorite..........

"Why"

Hamburgers, Dill, McDonalds
Why God, Why?
Dill, drive thrus, pickles
Why God, Why?

What have I done to deserve this green horror?
Surrounded on all sides with the Hell of pickles
Like a Thoreau character, I'm wordy and alone
Why God, Why?

Green things, hamburgers, jars
Why God, Why?
Pickles, jars, McDonalds
Why God, Why?

What have I done to deserve this green disaster that is my life?
Surrounded on all sides with the Hell of pickles
Like a Thoreau character, I'm wordy and alone
Why God, Why?

What have I done to deserve this green misery?
Surrounded on all sides with the Hell of pickles
Like a Thoreau character, I'm wordy and alone
Why God, Why?

Why God, Why?
Why God, Why?
Why God, Why?
Why God, Why?

Tuesday, March 19, 2002

Dreaming With Tears In My Eyes by Bono

My heart is longing for you love
I cared for you more than you knew
Though you have broken each promise
and yesterdays dreams are untrue

Alone I'm yearning for tomorrow
When sunshine brings memories of you
My sunshine will turn into sorrow
As a dream of a love we once knew

Why should I always be lonesome
When sunny and blue are the skies
While shadows of lonliness linger
I'm dreaming with tears in my eyes

Why did you promise me your sweet love
Never to leave me alone
Yesterday's sunshine is faded
Your love wasn't true like my own.

Alone I'm yearning for tomorrow
When sunshine brings memories of you
My sunshine will turn into sorrow
As a dream of the love we once knew

Why should I always be lonesome
When sunny and blue are the skies
While shadows of lonliness linger
I'm dreaming with tears in my eyes

Lonesome Town by Ricky Nelson

There's a place where lovers go to cry their troubles away.
And they call it Lonesome Town where the broken hearts stay.

You can buy a dream or two to last you all through the years
and the only price you pay is a heart full of tears.

Going down to Lonesome Town where the broken hearts stay
Going down to Lonesome Town to cry my troubles away

In the town of broken dreams the streets are filled with regret
Maybe down in lonesome town I can learn to forget.

Counterfeit by Limp Bizkit

Freakin' me out you wear a mask called counterfeit, you're freakin' me out you wear a mask
Freakin' me out you wear a mask called counterfeit, you're freakin' me out you wear a mask
Freakin' me out you wear a mask called counterfeit, you're freakin' me out you wear a mask
Freakin' me out you wear a mask called counterfeit, you're freakin' me out you wear a mask
Freakin' me out you wear a mask called counterfeit, you're freakin' me out you wear a mask
Freakin' me out you wear a mask called counterfeit, you're freakin' me out you wear a... fake.

hey man wake up and smell the concrete
strange to see you've changed like the LB
could be identity crisis but I can't buy this
reality bites but that's what life is

pitiful you,
your hideous behavior
hate what God gave ya,
fakin all the flava
artificial minds seekin out the new trends
get in where you fit in
quit thinkin like a has-been
diggin in my culture
let me let your punks know I'm an old school soldier
with the funk flow
a damn shame you wanna change yourself
because you're sick of yourself
well I'm sick of you too!

fake you're a, a counterfeit,
fake you know we figured you out
well I'm sick of you too,
fake you're a, a counterfeit,
fake

I wonder, I wonder I wonder what it's like to be a clone
doin' nothin, nothin' on my own
alone in your misery,
you're bitin on my new style
filed as a counterfeit, going down in history
as nothin but a copy cat (copy cat)
so if your fakin that you're phat you need a ballbat
right where your head is at
all your desperation causes separation
now I grab the mic to intimidate your weakness
screams from the limp on your siren
phonies get the hint quick
smacked with funk flick
pain for the fakers fame can't maintain

because you're sick of yourself
well I'm sick of you too!

fake you're a, a counterfeit,
fake you know we figured you out
well I'm sick of you too,
fake you're a, a counterfeit,
fake

all these phonies
you disregarded your life (disregarded your life)
you disrespected your friends (you disrespected your friends)
you've even stolen your appearance (stolen)
from hangin out with my family
but I should have never dropped my guard (shoulda never dropped my guard)
so you could stab me in the back (stab me in the back)
but you were faking me out (you were faking me out)
just faking me out you wear a mask (you wear a mask)

freaking me out you wear a mask called counterfeit,
you're freaking me out you wear a mask called counterfeit
you're freaking me out you wear a mask called counterfeit
you're freaking me out you wear a mask called counterfeit
you're freaking me out you wear a mask called counterfeit
you're freaking me out you wear a mask called counterfeit
you're freaking me out you wear a mask called counterfeit

now you're steadily startin to change
you wanna rearrange your lifestyle
live like the wild child
with the vibe alive you could lie to try and be so fly a lie
but you deny you're a fake

you know we figured you're a phony (fake)
you know we figured you out (fake)
you know we figured you out, figured you out, figured you out

fake
fake
fake
fake
fake
fake
fake

Wednesday, February 27, 2002

Foolish Games by Jewel

You took your coat off and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window
Always felt I was outside looking in on you

You were always the mysterious one
With dark eyes and careless hair
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather

Well in case you failed to notice
In case you failed to see
This is my heart bleeding before you
This is me down on my knees

These foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You were always brilliant in the morning
Smoking your cigarettes, talking over coffee
Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar

(You'd teach me of honest things
Things that were daring, things that were clean
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean
So I hid my soiled hands behind my back
Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you)

Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn
Somebody more like myself

These foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You took your coat off and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that

Saturday, February 16, 2002

"You want to pretend that you don't know
That you're killing me hey that's fine
I want to pretend for your sake
that I'm not dying

You want to say, rub it in my face
that you're cool everything's fine
I'll play the fool and I'll pretend
that you're not lying

I want to know how far you'll go
I want to see how far you'll bend
to be with me before you break
before you cave in

The we can go down this long road
The tears will fall the tear will mend
and we'll start all this stupid
bullshit up again" --Joe Parcell

"We've waited so long for someone to take us back home. It just takes so long. And meanwhile the days go drifting away, and some of us sink like stones. Waiting for mothers to come." --Counting Crows; "Amy Hit the Atmosphere."

"Belive in me as I'm leaving you tonight." --Smashing Pumpkins; "Tonight, Tonight."

"No I don't want to fall in love... This girl is only going to break your heart. Now I want to fall in love... This girl is only going to break your heart. ...With you." --Chris Isaak; "Wicked Game."

"I see seven towers, I only see one way out. You've got to cry without weeping, talk without speaking, scream without raising your voice." --U2; "Running to Stand Still."

"That's great it starts with an earthquake, birds and snakes an airplane. Lenny Bruce is not afraid. Eye of a hurricane listen to yourself churn world serves it's own needs regardless of your own needs feed it up a notch speed grunt no strength no ladder structure clatter with a fear of height down height wire in a fire represent the seven games in a government for hire and a combat sight left her wasn't coming in a hurry with the furies breathing down your neck team by team reporters baffled trump teather crop look at that low plane fine then uh-oh overflow population commongroup but it'll do save yourself serve yourself world serves its own needs listen to your heart bleed tell me with the rapture and the reverent and the right right you vitriotic patriotic slam fight bright light feeling pretty psyched... six o clock tv hour don't get caught in foreign tower slash and burn return listen to yourself churn lock him in uniform of book burning blood letting every motive escilate automovite incenerate light a candle light a motive step down step down watch a heel crush crush uh-oh this means no fear cavalier renegade and steer clear a tournament a tournament a tournament of lies offer me solutions offer me alternatives and I decline... the other night I tripped a nice continental drift divide Mt. St. Eldite Leonard Bernstein Leonid Breshdev Lenny Bruce and Lester Baggs birthday party cheesecake jelly bean boom you symbiotic patriotic slam but neck right? Right." --REM; "It's The End Of The World As We Know It (And I Feel Fine)." (No joke, that was all from memory. Go me.)

This really isn't a song... it's the full title of Fiona Apple's second album "When the Pawn..."

When The Pawn Hits The Conflicts He Thinks Like A King
What He Knows Throws The Blows When He Goes To The Fight
And He’ll Win The Whole Thing ‘Fore He Enters The Ring
There’s No Body To Batter When Your Mind Is Your Might
So When You Go Solo, You Hold Your Own Hand
And Remember That Depth Is The Greatest Of Heights
And If You Know Where You Stand, Then You Know Where To Land
And If You Fall It Won’t Matter, Cuz You’ll Know That You’re Right

Pale September by Fiona Apple

Pale September, I wore the time like a dress that year
The autumn days swung soft around me, like cotton on my skin
But as the embers of the summer lost their breath and disappeared
My heart went cold and only hollow rhythms resounded from within
But then he rose, brilliant as the moon in full
And sank in the burrows of my keep
And all my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

He goes along just as a water lily
Gentle on the surface of his thoughts his body floats
Unweighted down by passion or intensity
Yet unaware of the depth upon which he coasts
And he finds a home in me
For what misfortune sows, he knows my touch will reap

And all my armor failing down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
All my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

Thursday, February 07, 2002

Love Song for No One by John Mayer

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me

Wednesday, February 06, 2002

"Click, click, boom!" --Saliva, "Click Click Boom."

"There was a solemn man who watched his twilight disappear." --Pearl Jam; "Evacuation."

Tuesday, February 05, 2002

"Trouble move away, I have seen your face and it's too much for me today." --Pearl Jam; "Trouble."

"One, two, three, four, five, six, seven a.m. All alone again, but I've been through all this shit before. Spend my nights in self defense, crying about my innocence. But I ain't all that innocent anymore." --Counting Crows; "I'm Not Sleeping."

"Spin me round. Roll me over. Fucking circus. Stab it down. One way needle. Oh so slowly. Drains and spills. Soaks the pages. Fills their sponges. It's my blood." --Pearl Jam; "Blood."

"I don't know you're fucking name. So what, let's fuck." --Korn; "Adidas."

"What's going on in the world today. People fighting, feuding, looting it's ok. Let it go, let it flow, let the good times roll. Tell 'em Dre... it ain't nothing but music." --D-12; "Ain't Nuttin But Music."

"Special. You think you're special, you do. I can see it your eyes. I can see it when you laugh at me. Look down on me, walk around on me. Just one more fight about your leadership, and I will straight up leave your shit cos I have had enough of this. And now I'm pissed." --Limp Bizkit; "My Way."



Sunday, February 03, 2002

"I was bruised and battered, I couldn't tell what I felt. I was unrecognizable to myself. Saw my reflection in a window and didn't know my own face. Oh brother gonna leave me wasting away on the streets of Philadelphia." --Bruce Springsteen; "Streets of Philadelphia."

"Goodbye Norma Jean, though I never knew you at all. You had the grace to hold yourself while those around you crawled." --Elton John; "Candle in the Wind."



Saturday, February 02, 2002

"And I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed just to get it all out, what's in my head. And I'm feeling just a little peculiar. And I wake in the morning and I step outside, and I take a deep breath and I get real high. And I scream from the top of my lungs, 'What's going on?'" --4 Non Blondes; "What's Up."

"I wore it like a badge, teenage film stars, hash bars, cherry mash and tin foil tiaras, dreaming of Maria Callas... whoever she is." --REM; "E-Bow, the Letter."

Goodnight Elisabeth by Counting Crows.

I was wasted in the afternoon, waiting on a train
I woke up in pieces and Elisabeth disappeared again

I wish you were inside of me
I hope that you're ok
I hope you're resting quietly
I just wanted to say

Goodnight Elisabeth

We couldn't all be cowboys, some of us are clowns
Some of us are dancers on the midway, we roam from town to town

I hope that everybody
Can find a little flame
Maybe I should say my prayers
Light myself on fire and walk out on the wire once again

Goodnight Elisabeth

I'll wait for you in Baton Rouge
I'll miss you down in New Orleans
I'll wait for you while she slips in something comfortable
I'll miss you while I'm slipping in between

If you wrap yourself in dafodils I'll wrap myself in pain
If you're the queen of California, I am king of the rain

Goodnight Elisabeth
The moon is a satellite

Won't you fall down on me now
Won't you fall down on me

Because I'm all alone
You ain't coming home
We just settle down into bone.

Mercury by Counting Crows

She is trapped inside a month of grey
and they take a little every day.
She is a victim of her own repsonses
shakled to a heart that wnats to settle
and then runs away

It's a sin to be fading endlessly
but she's alright with me

She is leaving on a walkaway
She is leaving me in disarray
In the abscence of a place to be
She stands there looking back at me
Heistates, and then turns away

She'll change so suddenly. She's just like mercury.
But she's alright with me.

Save some sorrow in your hearts and minds
for the things that die before their time
for the restlessly abandoned homes
the tired and weary ramblers bones
that stay beside me where I lie

She's entwined in me, crazy as can be
But she's alright with me.

"Damn... after a hard days rockin... better slip off my shoes. Maybe give a little stretch, and a bend. Dip my toes in the jacuzi baby. I slip out my book on the Buttress of Windsor. Ho ho ho, who's this? How's it going? Thats the first thing I say to you. How's it going? Are you flowing? Listen honey, I'm thinking about a couple things to say to you. Showing, growing. Man I'd like to place my hands upon your fucking sexy ass and squeeze. And squeeze. Take off your blouse and your underpants, and take a look.... cuz me and K.G. come naked out of the side hatch, with the oils and purfumes and inscence." --Tenacious D; "Double Team."

3AM by Matchbox Twenty

She says it's cold outside she hands me my raincoat
She's always worried about things like that
She says it's all gonna end and it might as well be my fault

She only sleeps when it's raining
And she screams and her voice is straining

She says baby, it's 3am I must be lonely
She says baby, I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
and the rain's gonna wash away I believe this

She's got a little bit of something, and God it's better than nothing
In a color portrait world she believes that shes got it all
She swears the moon don't hang quite as high as it used to

She only sleeps when it's raining
And she screams and her voice is straining

She says baby, it's 3am I must be lonely
She says baby, I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
and the rain's gonna wash away I believe this

She believes that life is made up of all that you're used to
and the clock on the wall has been stuck at three for days and days
she thinks that happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway

but outside it stopped raining

She says baby, it's 3am I must be lonely
She says baby, I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
and the rain's gonna wash away I believe this

Monday, January 28, 2002

"I've conquered my past, the future is here at last. I stand at the entrance to a new world. I can see the ruins to the right of me will soon have lost sight of me. Love, rescue me." --U2; "Love Rescue Me."

"It only hurts when I think about it. It only hurts when I go without it." --Ivet; "Failure Boy."

"Life is too short so love the one you got, cuz you might get run over or you might get shot." --Sublime; "What I Got."

Sunday, January 27, 2002

"They say I'm cocky, and I say what? It ain't bragging motherfucker if you back it up." --Kid Rock; "Cocky."

Saturday, January 26, 2002

This song has been in my head for like two days now, I just remembered what it was called.

My Heart Can't Tell You No by Rod Stewart

I don't want you to come round here no more
I beg you for mercy
You don't know how strong my weakness is
Or how much it hurts me
Cause when you said it over with him
I want to believe it's true
So I let you in knowing tomorrow
I'm gonna wake up missing you
wake up missing you

When the one you love's
in love with someone else
Don't you know it's torture
I mean it's a living hell
No matter how I try to convince myself
this time I won't lose control
One look in your blue eyes
And suddenly my heart can't tell you no

I don't want you to call me up no more
Saying you need me
You're crazy if you think just half your love
could ever please me
Still I want to hold you, touch you
when you look at me that way
There's only one solution I know
You gotta stay away from me
Stay away from me

When the one you love's
in love with someone else
Don't you know it's torture
I mean it's a living hell
No matter how I try to convince myself
this time I won't lose control
One look in your sad eyes
And suddenly my heart can't tell you no
My Heart can't tell you no

Friday, January 25, 2002

"I want to tell you that I love you, but does it really matter?" --Mother Love Bone; "Crown of Thorns."

Crazy Mary by Big Head Todd and the Monsters

Baby's gonna change her life
She's made up her mind
She leaving her girls behind
And her lovers unkind

Crazy Mary look back and you're done
Just hold on and run
You're on your way home

Ain't nothin' gonna break you down Mary
I'm on your side
Nobody can touch you now Mary
Though trouble won't pass you by

Finding it hard to begin
To let the sun rise
To forget what was doing her in
What was making her blind

Crazy Mary just keep to yourself
Your old friends won't help
To make your escape

May you be well on your road
I know you'll get by
Life is the flower that grows
From the knots we untie

Crazy Mary look back and you're done
Just hold on and run
You're on your way home

Crazy Mary by Pearl Jam

She lived on a curve in the road
in an old tar paper shack
on the southside of the town
on the wrong side of the tracks

Sometimes on the way into town
we'd say "momma can we stop and give her a ride?"
Sometimes we did
but her hands flew from her side

Wild eyed, Crazy Mary

Down a long dirt road
past the Parson's place
that old blue car
we used to race

A little country store with a sign tacked to the side
said no L-O-I-T-E-R-I-N-G allowed.
Underneath that sign always
congrigated quite a crowd

Take a bottle, drink it down, pass it around
Take a bottle, drink it down, pass it around
Take a bottle, drink it down, pass it a- pass it a- pass it around

One night a thunder cracked, mercy backed outside her windowsill.
Dreamed I was flying high above the trees over the hills
Looked down into the house of Mary

Terrible thoughts, newspaper covered walls
And Mary rising up above it all.

The next morning on the way into town,
saw some skid marks and followed them around
over the curve through the field into the house of Mary.

That which you fear the most could meet you halfway
That which you fear the most could meet you halfway

Take a bottle, drink it down, pass it around

Thursday, January 17, 2002

"Run to the water and find me there burnt to the core but not broken. We'll cut through the madness of these streets below the moon with the nuclear fire of love in our hearts. Rest easy baby, rest easy. And recognize it all as light and rainbows smashed to smitherines and be happy." --Live; "Run to the Water."

"So I'm walking in the rain, thumbing for a ride on this lonely Kentucky backroad. I've loved you much too long, and my love's too strong to let you go, never knowing what went wrong." --Elvis Presley; "Kentucky Rain."

"I got bugs... I got bugs in my room. Bugs in my bed. Bugs in my ears. They're eggs in my head. Bugs in my pockets. Bugs in my shoes. Bugs in the way I feel about you." --Pearl Jam; "Bugs."

"I take a couple uppers, I down a couple downers, but nothing compares to these blue and yellow, purple pills." --D-12; "Purple Pills."

"I never thought of this as funny. It speaks another world to me. I want to be your Easter Bunny, I want to be your Christmas Tree." --REM; "You and Me."

"If she remembers, she hides it whenever we meet. Either way now... I don't really care. I'm gone from there." --Counting Crows; "Sullivan Street."

"They say this cat Shaft is a bad mutha... shut your mouth. I'm just talking about Shaft. Then we can dig it." --Isaac Hayes; "Shaft."

"We don't need no education. We don't need no thought control. No dark sarcasm in the classroom. Teacher leave those kids alone. Hey teacher leave them kids alone! All in all it's just another brick in the wall." --Pink Floyd; "Another Brick in the Wall."

"Maggie I wish I'd never seen your face." --Rod Stewart; "Maggie May."

Wednesday, January 16, 2002

"I stood close enough to hear you say do as the beautiful ones do. I tore up my picture from it's frame, I just wanted to be one of you. I'm standing on the outside looking in. A state of grace a state of sin. Standing on the outside looking in. Funny how you see the truth... but the feeling won't come back again." --Sheryl Crow, "On the Outside."

Sunday, January 13, 2002

"You gotta give it up to get off sometimes..." --Matchbox Twenty; "Stop."

Indifference by Pearl Jam

I will light the match this morning, so I won't be alone.
Watch as she lies silent for soon that will be gone.
I will stand arms outstreached pretend I'm free to roam.
I will make my way through one more day in hell.

How much difference does it make?
How much difference does it make?

I will hold the candle till it burns up my arm.
I'll keep taking punches until their will grows tired.
I will stare the sun down until my eyes go blind.
I won't change direction and I wont change my mind.

How much difference does it make?
How much difference does it make?

I will swallow poison until I grow immune.
I will scream my lungs out till it fills this room.

How much difference....
How much difference....

How much difference does it make?
How much difference does it make?

Wednesday, January 02, 2002

Halloween by Dave Matthews Band

Hey little dreamer's eyes open and staring up at me
Oh little lonely eyes open and radiant

Wait until I come and I will steal you
Wait until I come I'll take your soul
Wait until I come and I will steal you
Wait until I come and I won't go

Darlin' dreamin in the night
Shadows on the windows
Lead oh and everyone go
Well leave me on the night
I will give you lightning
I will not relinquish light

Oh little dreamer eyes open and raving here

Wait until I come and see you little girl
When we come I'll leave with you too
When we come I'll let you come low

Hey we'll leave it all behind
Oh and then the nightmares
I'll fill them in good time
Oh they will seat your mind
When the light hits
And you maybe'll ask me

Why do you run around here
Why do you come inside of me
Why does it rip me out in dream
Why then why then watch this little fuck

Going away

Why this lonely
Why this lonely
Why this lonely love

Why this lonely
Why this lonely
Why this lonely love

Halloween
Carry on
Bury all
Bury all
Bury all
Bury all
Bury all

And in this dream
Tell us are you satisfied with fucking

Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
I'm talking to you

Love is hell
Love is hell
Love is hell
Love this I'll tame you

Love
Love
Love
Love this not me here

Love
Love
Love
Love him up to you

A Good Year For the Roses by Counting Crows

I can hardly stand the sight of lipstick
on the cigarettes there in the ashtray.
Lying cold the way you left them,
but at least your lips caressed them
while you packed.
Or the lip print on a half-filled cup
of coffee that you poured
and didn't drink.
But at least you thought you wanted it
which is so much more than I can say for me.

It's been a good year for the roses
Many blooms still linger there.
The lawn could stand another mowing
It's funny, I don't even care
But as you turned and walked away
As the door behind you closes
The only thing I thought to say
Was what a good year for the roses

After three, four years of marriage
It's the first time that you haven't made the bed
I guess the reason we're not talking,
is there's so little left to say that we haven't said
While a million thoughts go racing through my mind
I guess I haven't said a word
From the bedroom, the familiar sound
of our one baby's crying goes unheard

Leave by R.E.M.

Nothing could be bring me closer.
nothing could be bring me near.
where is the road I follow
to leave, leave?

It's under, under, under my feet.
the sea spread out there before me.
where do I go when the land touches sea?
there is my trust in what I believe.

That's what keeps me,
that's what keeps me,
that's what keeps me down,
to leave, believe it,
leave it all behind.

Shifting the dream
nothing could bring me further from my old friend time.
shifting the dream
it's charging the scene
I know where I marked the signs.

I suffer the dreams of a world gone mad
I like it like that and I know it
I know it well, ugly and sweet,
that temper madness with an even extreme.

That's what keeps me
that's what keeps me
that's what keeps me down
I say that I'm a bantam lightweight
I say that I'm a phantom airplane
that never left the ground.

That's what keeps me,
that's what keeps me,
that's what keeps me down,
to leave it, believe it.
leave it all behind.

Lift me, lift me,
I attain my dream.
I lost myself, I lost the
heartache calling me.
I lost myself in sorrow
I lost myself in pain.
I lost myself in clarity,
memory, leave, leave.

That's what keeps me,
that's what keeps me,
that's what keeps me down,
To leave it, believe it,
leave it all behind.

That's what keeps me,
that's what keeps me,
that's what keeps me down,
to leave it, believe it,
leave it all behind.

Lift my hands, my eyes are still,
I'll walk into the sea
shoot myself in a different place
and leave it

I've longed for this to take me,
I've longed for my release
I've waited for the callin'
to leave, leave.

Leave, leave.
Leavin', leavin'

I Got Id by Pearl Jam

My lips are shaking my nails are bit off.
Been a month since I've heard myself talk.
All the advantage this life's got on me.
Picture a cup in the middle of the sea.
And I fight back in my mind. Never lets me right out.
I got memories. I got shit so much it don't show.

Oh, I walked the lie when you held me in that night.
I walked the line when you held my hand that night.

On empty shell seem so easy to crack.
Got all these questions. Don't know who I could even ask.
So I'll just lie alone and wait for the dream where I'm not ugly and your looking at me.
And I stay in bed. Oh, in a little while I'll see you.
If just once I could feel love, oh, stare back at me. Yeah.

But I walked the lie when you held me in that night.
Oh, I walked the lie when you held my hand that night.
Oh, I walked the lie when you held me close that night.
I paid the price. Never held you in real life.

My lips are shaking...

Fitter Happier by Radiohead

Fitter happier more productive
Comfortable
Not drinking too much
Regular exercise at the gym (3 days a week)
Getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries
At ease
Eating well (no more microwave dinners and saturated fats)
A patient better driver
A safer car (baby smiling in back seat)
Sleeping well (no bad dreams)
No paranoia
Careful to all animals (never washing spiders down the plughole)
Keep in contact with old friends (enjoy a drink now and then)
Will frequently check credit at (moral) bank (hole in wall)
Favours for favours
Fond but not in love
Charity standing orders
On sundays ring road supermarket
(No killing moths or putting boiling water on the ants) Car wash (also on sundays)
No longer afraid of the dark
Or midday shadows
Nothing so ridiculously teenage and desparate
Nothing so childish
At a better pace
Slower and more calculated
No chance of escape
Now self-employed
Concerned (but powerless)
An empowered and informed member of society (pragmatism not idealism)
Will not cry in public
Less chance of illness
Tyres that grip in the wet (shot of baby strapped in back seat)
A good memory
Still cries at a good film
Still kisses with saliva
No longer empty and frantic
Like a cat
Tied to a stick
That's driven into
Frozen winter shit (the ability to laugh at weakness)
Calm
Fitter, healthier and more productive
A pig
In a cage
On antibiotics

Long Road by Pearl Jam

And I wished for so long. Cannot stay.
All the precious moments. Cannot stay.
It's not like wings have fallen. Cannot stay.
But still something's missing. I cannot say, yeah.

Holding hands are daughters and sons.
And their faiths are falling down, down, down, down.
I have wished for so long. How I wish for you today.

Will I walk the long road? (the long road) Cannot stay. (the long road)
There's no need to say goodbye. (to say goodbye)

All the friends and family.
All the memories going round, round, round, round.
I have wished for so long. How I wish for you today.

And the wind keeps roaring. And the sky keeps turning grey.
And the sun is set. The sun will rise another day.

I...
I have wished for so long. How I wish for you today.
I have wished for so long. How I wish for you today.
Will I walk the long road? We all walk the long road.
Will I walk the long road? We all walk the long road.
Will I walk the long road?
Will I walk the long road? We all walk the long road.
Will I walk the long road? We all walk the long road.
Will I walk the long road?

My three favorite songs. Notice a sleightly common theme. I didn't until a friend pointed it out to me.

One by U2

Is it getting better?
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now
that you've got someone to blame?

You say one love.
One life.
When it's one need
in the night.

One love
We get to share it
It leaves you baby
if you don't care for it.

Did I disappoint you?
Leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love.
Now you want me to go without.

Well it's too late
tonight
to drag the past out in
to the light

We're one but we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One...

Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus
to the lepers in your head?

Did I ask too much?
More than a lot?
You gave me nothing
now it's all I've got.

We're one but we're not the same.
Well we hurt each other
then we do it again

You say
Love is a temple.
Love, a higher law.
Love is a temple.
Love, the higher law.

You ask me to enter
then you make me crawl.
And I can't keep holding on to what you've got
when all you've got is hurt.

One love
One blood
One life
you gotta do what you should
One life
with each other
sisters
brothers
One life
but were not the same
we get to carry each other
carry each other

one...

Black by Pearl Jam

Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
her lace spread out before me as her body lay still
all five horizons revolve around her soul
like the earth to the sun
and now the air I've tasted and breathed has taken a turn

Oh and all I taught her was everything
I know she gave me all that she was

and now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds
of what was everything?
all the pictures have all been wsahed in black
tattoed everything.

I take a walk outside, I'm surrounded by some kids at play.
I can feel their laughter so why do I sear.

Oh and twisted thoughts that spin around my head.
I'm spinning.
Oh I'm spinning. How quick the sun can drop away.

and now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
of what was everything
all the pictures have all been washed in black
tattoed everything
all the love gone bad turned my world to black
tattoed all I see, all that I am, all I'll ever be.

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a star in somebody else's sky
but why, why, why can't it be
why can't it be mine?

Speedway by Counting Crows

I get so nervous I'm shaking.
Gets so I got no pride at all.
Gets so bad but I just keep coming back for more.
I guess I just get off on that stuff.

I'm thinking about taking some time.
I'm thinking about leaving soon.

I got some things I can't tell anyone.
I got some things I just can't say.
They're the kind of things no one kows about.
I just need somebody to talk to me.

I'm thinking about leaving tomorrow.
I'm thinking about being on my own.
I think I've been wasing my time.
I'm thinking about getting out.
I'm thinking about getting out.

And all this time
the bottom line is
you don't know how much I feel

You say you see
but I don't agree
you don't know.

You don't know how I feel.

I'm just trying to get myself some gravity
you're just trying to get me to stay
sometimes I sit here looking down upon Los Angeles
sometimes I'm floating away

I'm thinking about breaking myself
I'm thinking about getting back home
I think I've been waiting for way too long.
I'm thinking about getting out.
I'm thinking about getting out.

I'm thinking about getting out.

Monday, December 31, 2001

"Bombs are flying, people are dying. Children are crying, politicians are lying too. Cancer is killing, Texaco's spilling... the whole world's gone to hell, but how are you?" --Big Gay Al; "I'm Super."

"For here am I sitting in a tin can, far above the world. Planet Earth is blue and there's nothing I can do." --David Bowie; "Space Oddity."

"A wave came crashing like a fist to the jaw, delivered him wings, hey look at me now." --Pearl Jam; "Given To Fly"

"It's the capital S oh yes, so fresh N double O, P, D, O, double G, Y, D, O, double G, ya see." --Snoop Dogg; "Nothing But a G Thang."

Friday, December 28, 2001

"There's no time for us. There's no place for us. What is this thing that builds our dreams and slips away from us. Who want's to live forever..." --Queen; "Who Wants to Live Forever."

"Got a gun. In fact I got two. That's okay man cause I love God. Glorified version of a pellet gun. Feels so manly when armed." --Pearl Jam; "Glorified G."

"What's this you say, you feel the right to remain? Then stay, and I will bury you. What's this you say, your father's spirit still lives in this place? Well I will silence you." --Dave Matthews Band; "Don't Drink the Water."

"I wish that I knew what I know now when I was younger." --The Faces; "Oh La La."

"If he only knew now what he knew then." --Pearl Jam; "I'm Open."

In fact, that one needs to be written in its entirety.

I'm Open by Pearl Jam.

Spoken:
A man lies in his bed in a room with no door. He waits hoping for a prescence, something, anything, to enter. After spending half his life searching, he still felt as blank as the ceiling at which he now starred. He is alive, but feels absolutely nothing. So is he? When he was six he believed the moon overhead followed him. By nine he had deciphered the illusion, trading magic for fact. No tradebacks. So this is what it's like to be an adult. If he only knew now what he knew then.

I'm open.
I'm open.

Come in.
Come in.
Come in.
Come in.

I'm open.
I'm open.

Come in.
Come in.
Come in.
Come in.

Spoken:
Lying sideways atop crumpled sheets and no covers he decides to dream. Dream up a new self... for himself.

"I can't live with or without you. And you give yourself away." --U2; "With or Without You."

"How do you do, I see you've met my faithful handyman. He's just a little brought down because when you knocked, he thought you were the candyman. Don't get strung out by the way I look. Don't judge a book by it's cover. I'm not much of a man by the light of day, but by night I'm one hell of a lover." --Richard O'Brien; "Sweet Transvestite."

Tuesday, December 18, 2001

"While you were sleeping I was listening to the radio and wondering what you're dreaming, when it came to mind that I didn't care." --Matchbox Twenty; "Rest Stop."

Wednesday, December 12, 2001

Round Here by Counting Crows.

step out the front door like a ghost
into the fog where no one notices
the contrast of white on white.

and in between the moon and you,
angels get a better view
of the crumbling difference between wrong and right.

well I walk in the air between the rain
through myself and back again

where... i don't know

but maria says she's dying
through the door i hear her crying

why... i don't know

round here we always stand up straight
round here something radiates

maria came from nashville with a suitcase in her hand
said she'd like to meet a boy who looks like elvis
and she walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land
just like she's walking on a wire in the circus

she parks her car outside of my house and takes her clothes off
says shes close to understanding jesus
she knows she's more than just a little misunderstood
she has trouble acting normal when she's nervous

round here we're carving out our names
round here we all look the same
round here we talk like lions but we sacrifice like lambs
round here she's slipping through my hands

sleeping children better run like the wind
out of this lightning dream
mamma's little baby better get herself in
out of the lightning

she says it's only in my head
she says shh... i know, it's only in my head

but the girl on the car in the parking lot
says man you should try to take your shot
can't you see my walls are crumbling?

she looks up at the building says she's thinking of jumping
she says shes tired of life, she must be tired of something

round here shes always on my mind
round here i got a lot of time
round here we're never sent to bed early and nobody makes us wait
round here we stay up very very very very late

i can't see nothing, nothing, round here
would you catch me if i was falling
would you catch me if i was falling
would you catch me because i'm falling down on you

i said i'm under the gun round here
oh man i said i'm under the gun round here
and i can't see nothing

nothing

round here

"Other arms reach out to me, other eyes smile tenderly. But still in peaceful dreams I see the road leads back to you." --Ray Charles; "Georgia On My Mind."

"Son, she said, have I got a little story for you. Who thought was your daddy was nothing, but uh.... while you were sitting home alone at age 13, your real daddy was dying. Sorry you didn't see him, but I'm glad we talked." --Pearl Jam; "Alive."

Tuesday, December 11, 2001

"I never go to New York City these days. There's something about the buildings in Chelsea that kills me. Maybe in a month or two, maybe when things are different for me, maybe when things are different for you. All of this shit just sticks in my head. Is anything different these days? The light in her eyes goes out. I never had light in my eyes anyway. But maybe things are different these days." --Counting Crows; "Chelsea."

"A little death without mourning. No calm and no warning. Baby a dangerous idea, that almost makes sense." --U2; "Love is Blindness."

"See all my suits are Calvin Klein. My lucky number's 69. I got all the things I need. It's the nature of my breed." --Marcy Playground; "The Devil's Song."

"What powers you ask? Alright how about the power of flight? Does that do anything for you? That's levitation homes. How about the power to kill a yak from two hundred yards away... with MIND BULLETS?? That's telekinesis Kyle. How about the power... to move you." --Tenacious D; "Wonderboy."

"Can peace come out of fighting? Can truth come out of lying? I'm happy when I'm crying." --Pearl Jam; "Happy When I'm Crying."

"Woo. Good morning ladies." --Afroman; "Colt 45."

"Why can't I get just one kiss? Why can't I get just one kiss? Believe me some things I wouldn't miss, but I look at your pants and oh I need a kiss." --Violent Femmes; "Add It Up."

"What's your favorite posish? That's cool with me, it's not my favorite but I'll do it for you. What's your favorite dish? I'm not gonna cook it, but I'll order it fronm Zanzabar!!!" --Tenacious D; "Fuck Her Gently."

Monday, December 10, 2001

"Did I ask too much? More than a lot? You gave me nothing, now it's all I got. We're one, but we're not the same. We hurt each other, then we do it again. You say love is a temple. Love, the higher law. Love is a temple. Love, a higher law. You ask me to enter, and then you make me crawl. And I can't keep holding on to what you've got when all you've got is hurt." --U2; "One."

"Well you never turned around to see the frowns on the jugglers and the clowns when they all did tricks for you." --Bob Dylan; "Like a Rolling Stone."

"She looks up at the building, says she's thinking of jumping. She says she's tired of life, she must be tired of something." --Counting Crows; "Round Here."

"I know someday you'll have a beautiful life. I know you'll be a star in somebody elses sky. But why can't it be mine?" --Pearl Jam; "Black."

"I will dig a hole. Saving pennies for a rainy day. I'm not scared. I will build a wall, sensing trouble from a mile away. I will build a wall, saw it coming from a mile away. I'm not scared. Try wearing your inside's out. I don't even try. I know I have seen the best I'll have. I don't even try." --Guster; "Rainy Day."

"Everybody has a ghost who sings like you do. Yours is not like mine, it's alright, keep it up." --Live; "Ghost."

"I tell you how I feel and you don't care. I say tell me truth but you don't dare. You say love is a hell you cannot bear. I say give me mine back and then go there for all I care." --Fiona Apple; "Sleep to Dream."

"I kissed your lips and broke your heart. You... you were acting like it was the end of the world." --U2; "Until the End of the World."

"All these suns arise. Not one has touched this soul." --Something Said; "Haze."

"It's something unpredictable, and in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life." --Green Day; "Time Of Your Life."

"It seems like I should say, "As long as this is love." But it's not all that easy, so maybe I should wrap her up in a butterfly net and pin her down on a photograph album. I am not worried, I've done this sort of thing before. But then I start to think about the consequences, and I don't get no sleep in a quiet room. And this time when kindness falls like rain, it washes me away. And Anna begins to change my mind. And everytime she sneezes I believe it's love, and oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing. She's talking in her sleep, it's keeping me awake. And Anna begins to toss and turn. And every word is nonsense but I understand, and oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing. Her kindness bangs a gong, it's moving me along, and Anna begins to fade away. It's chasing me away. She disappears, and oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing." --Counting Crows; "Anna Begins."

"So I'll just lie alone and wait for the dream where I'm not ugly and you're looking at me." --Pearl Jam; "I Got ID."

"Consider this. Consider this the hint of the century. Consider this. The slip has brought me to my knees failed. What if all these fantasies come flailing around. And now I've said too much. I thought that I heard you laughing, I thought that I heard you sing. I think I thought I saw you try. But that was just a dream." --REM; "Losing My Religion."

"This plane is definitely gonna crash. This boat is obviously sinking." --Ivet; "Grind Rod."

"Don't believe in fear, don't believe in faith. Don't believe in anything that you can't break. Stupid girl. You stupid girl. All you had you wasted." --Garbage; "Stupid Girl."

"Even now the world is bleeding, but we're feeling just fine all numb in our castle. Where we're always free to choose, never free enough to find. I wish something would break, because we're running out of time." --Live; "Overcome."

"She's got a little bit of something, and God, it's better than nothing. In a color portrait world she believes that she's got it all. She swears the moon don't hang quite as high as it used to. She only sleeps when it's raining. She screams, and her voice is straining." --Matchbox Twenty; "3am."

"And I get no answers, and I don't get no change. It's raining in Baltimore, baby, but everything else is the same." --Counting Crows; "Raining in Baltimore."

"Love. I get so lost sometimes. Days pass. And this emptiness fills my heart. When I want to run away I drive off in my car. But whichever way I choose I come back to the place you are." --Peter Gabriel; "In Your Eyes."

"Juliet. When we made love, you used to cry. You said I love you like the stars above, I'll love you til I die. There's a place for us, you know the movie song. When you gonna realize, it's just that the time was wrong?" --Dire Straits; "Romeo and Juliet."

"Who on earth do you think you are? A super star? Well right you are. Well we all shine on, like the moon and the stars and the sun. We all shine on. Everyone. Come on." --John Lennon; "Instant Karma"

"No one knows what it's like to be the bad man. To be the sad man behind blue eyes. No one knows what its like to be hated. To be faded. To telling only lies. But my dreams they are as empty as my conscience seems to be. I have hours only lonely. My love is vengence that's never free." --The Who; "Behind Blue Eyes."

"With the lights out, it's less dangerous. Here we are now, entertain us. I feel stupid and contageous. Here we are now, entertain us." --Nirvana; "Smells Like Teen Spirit."

"Imagine there's no heaven. It's easy if you try. No hell below us. Above us only sky. Imagine all the people living for today. Imagine there's no countries. It isn't hard to do. Nothing to kill or die for. And no religion too. Imagine all the people living life in peace. You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one. I hope someday you'll join us and the world will be as one." --John Lennon; "Imagine."

"I want love, just a different kind. I want love won't break me down, won't brick me up, won't fence me in. I want a love that don't mean a thing. That's the love I want. I want love." --Elton John; "I Want Love."

"And if the night rolls over. And if the day won't last. And if our way should falter along the stony pass. It's just a moment, this time will pass." --U2; "Stuck In a Moment You Can't Get Out Of."

"If I listened long enough to you, I'd find a way to beileve that it's all true. Knowing that you lied straight faced while I cried. Still I look to find a reason to believe." --Rod Stewart; "Reason to Believe."

"What the fuck is this world running to? You didn't leave a message. At least I could've learned you voice one last time. Daily mine field. This could be my time by you. Would you hit me? Would you hit me? All the bills go by and initiatives are taken up. By the middle... there ain't gonna be any middle anymore. And the cross I'm bearing has been indicitive of my place. Left the porch, left the porch." --Pearl Jam; "Porch."

"You float like a feather in a beautiful world. I wish I was special. You're so fucking special. But I'm a creep. I'm a weirdo. What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here." --Radiohead; "Creep."

"Love is blindness. I don't want to see. Won't you wrap the night around me. Take my heart. It's blindness. In a parked car, on a crowded street, you see your love made complete. The thread is ripping. The knot is slipping. Love is blindness." --U2; "Love is Blindness."

"I've been around for you. Been up and down for you. I just can't get any relief. I've swallowed my pride for you, lived and I've lied for you, but you still make me feel like a thief. You got me stealing your love away because you never give it. Peeling the years away and we can't relive it. I make you laugh, and you make me cry. I believe it's time for me to fly." --REO Speedwagon; "Time For Me To Fly."

"Sitting on the beach. The island king of love. Deep in Fijian seas. Deep in some blissful dream. When the goddess finally sleeps in the lap of her lover. Sudued in all her rage. And I'm aglow with the taste. The demons driven out, and happily replaced with the prescence of real love. The only one who sleeps." --Live; "Dance With You."

"It's not the spotlight. It's not the camera light. It's not the streetlights from some old street of dreams. It ain't the moonlight, not even the sunlight. But I've seen it shining in your eyes, and you know what I mean." --Rod Stewart; "It's Not the Spotlight."

"I get so nevrous I'm shaking. Gets so I got no pride at all. Gets so bad but I just keep coming back for more. I guess I just get off on that stuff. I'm thinking about taking some time. Thinking about leaving soon." --Counting Crows; "Speedway."

"I will swallow poison until I grow immmune. I will scream my lungs out until it fills this room. How much difference does it make?" --Pearl Jam; "Indifference."

"If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time. You've dreamed a thousand dreams, none seem to stick in your mind. Two points for honesty, it must make you sad to know that nobody cares at all." --Guster; "Two Points For Honesty."

"Counting flowers on the wall, that don't bother me at all. Playing solitaire til dawn with a deck of fifty-one. Smoking cigarettes and watching Captain Kangaroo, now don't tell me I've nothing to do." --The Statler Brothers; "Flowers on the Wall."

"And now I rub my eyes for he has returned. It seems my preconceptions are what should have been burned. For he still smiles. And he's still strong. Nothings changed but the surrounding bullshit that has grown. Now he's home and we're laughing like we always did, my same old friend. Until a quarter to ten. I saw the strain creep in. He seems distracted and I know just what is going to happen next. Before his first step, he's off again." --Pearl Jam; "Off He Goes."

"Three o' clock in the morning. It's quiet and there's no one around. Just the bang and the clatter as an angel runs to ground. Just the bang and the clatter as an angel hits the ground." --U2; "Stay (Faraway, So Close)."

"Can't you hear me, because I'm screaming. And I did not go outside yesterday. Don't wake me, please, because I'm dreaming. And I might just stay inside again today. I don't go out much these days. Sometimes I just stay inside all day. Leave me alone." --Counting Crows; "Miller's Angels."

"She runs through the streets with her eyes painted red, under a black belly of cloud in the rain. In through a doorway, she brings me white-golden pearls, stolen from the sea. She is raging. She is raging. And a storm blows up in her eyes. She will suffer the needles chill. She's running to stand still." --U2; "Running To Stand Still."

"I am everything you want. I am everything you need. I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be. I say all the right things at all the right times, but I mean nothing to you and I don't know why." --Vertical Horizon; "Everything You Want."

"It's easier not to be wise and measure theses things by your brains. I sank into Eden with you. Alone in the church by and by. I'll read to you here save your eyes. You'll need them your boat is at sea. Your anchor is up you've been swept away. And the greatest of teachers won't hesistate to leave you there by yourself chained to fate." --Live; "I Alone."

"Once divided, there's nothing left to subtract. Some words, once spoken, can't be taken back. Walks on his own with thoughts he can't help thinking. Future's above. But in the past he's slow and sinking. Caught a bolt of lightning. Cursed the day he let it go." --Pearl Jam; "Nothingman."

"Chloe don't know better. Chloe's just like me only beautiful. A couple of years difference. But those lessons never learned. Did you know Chloe does the tables in the French Quarter. She's always been given. So I can't always make her laugh. But I'm proud to say, and I won't forget the time spent laying by her side. The time spent laying by her side. Dreams like this must die..." --Mother Love Bone; "Chloe Dancer."

"This is how I go out tonight. Dressed in blue by the book tonight. This is how I go out tonight, but I don't need a book." --Live; "TBD"

"You say you want diamonds on a ring of gold. You say you want your story to remain untold. But all the promises we make from the cradle to the grave, when all I want is you." --U2; "All I Want Is You."

"I gotta rush away she said. I've been to Boston before. And anyway, this change I've been feeling doesn't make the rain fall. No big differences these days, just the same old walkaways. And someday I'm gonna stay. But not today." --Counting Crows; "Walkaways."

"Nevermind the darkness, we still can find a way. Nothing lasts forever, even cold November rain." --Guns N Roses; "November Rain."

"Our love is like water; pinned down and abused for being strange. Our love is no other than me alone for me all day. Our love is like angels, pinned down and abused." --Live; "All Over You."

"I don't mind stealing bread from the mouths of decadents. But I can't feed on the powerless when my cups already overfilled. But it's on the table, the fire's cooking. And they're farming babies while the slaves are all working. It's on the table the mouths are all choking. But I'm growing hungry." --Temple of the Dog; "Hunger Strike."

"I didn't know what day it was when you walked into the room. I said hello, I noticed you said goodbye too soon." --Rod Stewart; "You're In My Heart."

"...and Jesus, he wants to go to Venus. Leave Levon far behind. Take a balloon and go sailing while Levon slowly dies. He was born a pauper to a pawn on a christmas day when the New York Times said God is Dead and the war's begun. Alvin Tostig has a son today. And he shall be Levon, and he shall be a good man." --Elton John; "Levon."

"Amy hit the atmosphere. She caught herself a rocket ride out of this gutter. And she's never coming back I fear. Anytime it rains she just feels a lot better. And that's all that really matters to me." --Counting Crows; "Amy Hit The Atmosphere."

"A woman needs a man like a fish needs a bicycle when you're trying to throw your arms around the world." --U2; "Trying To Throw Your Arms Around the World."

"I feel safe, I feel scared, I feel ready and yet unprepared." --Garbage; "The World is Not Enough."

"Oh lord, won't you buy me a night on the town. I'm counting on you lord, please don't let me down. Prove that you love me and buy the next round." --Janis Joplin; "Mercedes Benz."

"Out here in the fields I fight for my meals. I get my back into my living. I don't need to fight to prove I'm right. I don't need to be forgiven. Don't cry, don't brace your eyes. It's only teenage wasteland." --The Who; "Baba O' Riley"

"When I was a kid, how magic it seemed. Please let me sleep, it's Christmas time." --Pearl Jam; "Let Me Sleep."

"I can feel it coming back again. Like a rolling thunder chasing the wind. Forces pulling from the center of the earth again. I can feel it." --Live; "Lightning Crashes."

"So far away. Away. Fading distant lights. Leaving us all behind, lost in a changing world. And you know that these are the days of our lives, so remember." --Genesis; "Fading Lights."

"She keeps a lock of hair in her pocket, and a cross around her neck. The hair is from a little boy, and the cross is someone she has not met. Not yet." --Black Crows; "She Talks To Angels."

"Some would say I'm a lost man in a lost world. You could say I lost my faith in the people on TV. People say I lost my faith in the politicians. They all seem like game show hosts to me." --Sting; "If I Ever Lose My Faith In You."

"This is for your kids amusement. But don't blame me when little Eric jumps off of the terrace. You should've been watching him. Apparently you ain't parents." --Eminem; "Who Knew."

"Tell me, did you sail across the sun? Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights are faded, and that heaven is over-rated? Tell me, did you call from a shooting star? One without a permanent scar? I'll bet you missed me while you were looking for yourself out there." --Train; "Drops Of Jupiter."

"Would have given you all of my heart, but there's someone who's torn it apart. And she's taken just all that I have, but if you want, I'll try to love again." --Rod Stewart; "The First Cut Is The Deepest."

"It's one more day up in the canyons. And it's one more night in Hollywood. Man, it's been so long since I've seen the ocean. I guess I should." --Counting Crows; "A Long December."

"Going down to Lonesome Town, where the broken hearts stay. Going down to Lonesome Town to cry my troubles away." --Ricky Nelson; "Lonesome Town."

"I took a drive today. Time to emancipate. I guess it was the beatings that made me wise. But I'm not about to give thanks or apologize." --Pearl Jam; "Rearviewmirror."

"And what I need is a good defense, because I'm feeling like a criminal. And I need to be redeemed to the one I've sinned against, because he's all I ever knew of love." --Fiona Apple; "Criminal."

"So love is strong, and love is tough. But love is not what you're thinking of." --U2; "Please."

"Pitiful you. Your hideous behavior. Hate what God gave you, faking all the flavor. Artificial minds seeking out the new trends. Get in where you fit in, quit thinking like a has-been. Digging in my culture, let me let you punks know I'm and old-school soldier with the funk flow. A damn shame you wanna change yourself, because your sick of yourself? Well I'm sick of you too." --Limp Bizkit; "Counterfeit."

"I'm on the outside, and I'm looking in. I can see through you, see your true colors. Inside you're ugly, ugly like me. I can see through you, see to the real you." --Staind; "Outside."

"So far away, doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore. It would be so fine to see your face at my door. And it doesn't help to know that you're so far away." --Carole King; "So Far Away."

"Don't need a helmet, got a hard hard head. Don't need a raincoat, I'm already wet. Don't need a bandage, there's too much blood. After a while, seems to roll right off." --Pearl Jam; "Whipping."

"There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold. And she's buying a stairway to heaven. When she gets there she knows if the stores are all closed, with a word she can get what she came for." --Led Zepplin; "Stairway to Heaven."

"Waiting, watching the clock. It's four o clock. It's got to stop. Tell him, take no more. She practices her speech as he opens the door. She rolls over. Pretends to sleep as he looks her over. She lies and says she's in love with him. Can't find a better man. She dreams in color, she dreams in red. Can't find a better man." --Pearl Jam; "Betterman."

"Lovely lady. I will treat you sweety. Adore you. I mean you crush me. And it's times like these with my faith I feel it. I know how I love you." --Dave Matthews Band; "Crush."

"I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding I am colorblind. Coffee black and egg white. Pull me out from inside. I am ready, I am ready, I am ready, I am fine." --Counting Crows; "Colorblind."

"Don't you cry tonight. I still love you baby. Don't you cry tonight. Don't you cry tonight, there's a heaven above you baby. Don't you cry tonight." --Guns N Roses; "Don't Cry."

"If time will wait for me, then I can wait the rest of time." --Something Said; "The Fall."

"It's the blind leading the blond. It's the cops collecting for the cons. So where is the hope? And where is the faith and the love? What's that you say to me? Does love light up your christmas tree?" --U2; "If God Will Send His Angels."

"Daddy never gave attention to the fact that mommy didn't care. King Jeremy the Wicked ruled his world. Jeremy spoke in class today." --Pearl Jam; "Jeremy"

"This is the noise that keeps me awake. My head explodes and my body aches." --Garbage; "Push It."

"There is no pain. You are receding. A distant ship's smoke on the horizon. You are only coming through in waves. You lips move but I can't hear what you're saying." --Pink Floyd; "Comfortably Numb."